It's just too beautiful to be true, and too wonderful to be over

Couldn't handle it. can't stand it.

Couldn't sleep for lyk 3 days

tears all over the pillow

Time, dafuq r u trying to made?

I miss it.

I miss all those fucking beautiful memories

I miss the feeling i felt when we travel around by bus,

we ride the ship, went overseas

the excitement, the joy, the feelings inside,

i miss them so fucking bad.

the laughters

& the tears when it's over

i just can't describe it with words...

God, please, bring me back to the day when i started the journey

to 19 feb 12'

and the 6 days ahead.

Happy Bday Okilay!

INI.... GADENG HAHAHAHA ILY KI, JGN MARAH

alay lo ki:-*

Re-Write again

This is when we celebrated her bday in the bus... 19 feb 12' {yeah we were on our way to jogja-bali back then} . epic wins.

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Hello November.. Hello Rain.. Hello November Rain~

Here goes!

hm... coba kita pikir dengan yg namanya "KEMATIAN" ..
well jujur aja gue setiap hari gue selalu merasa bahwa "KEMATIAN" itu masih lama...
"Meen, gue masih 12 tahun, gue gak mungkin kenapa-kenapa! Orang jarang ada meninggal umur 12 tahun. Gue bakal mati karena tua.”

yap... mungkin aja lo pernah ngerasa begitu... you are not invicible. It could be you. Umur gak ada yang tahu.

Kadang gue ngerasa, kematian adalah topik yang sensitif untuk kita.
Sesuatu yang “ada” tapi selalu kita deny keberadaannya.
Living is constant denying for death.

Kita hidup di dunia ini seolah-olah kematian tidak exist. Kita makan, kita bercanda, kita karaoke, kita jatuh cinta. We forget about death. We are too busy with our distraction. But it is there...

And, mungkin gue suatu hari bakalan mati, tapi gue pengen ngebuat sesuatu yang enggak bakal mati. Katanya Chuck Palahniuk, “The goal is not to life forever, but to create something that will.” Hidup terus. Dengan apa pun.
Gue gak mau dilupakan.
Gue gak mau hanya menjadi semacam nama yang hilang begitu saja.
Nama yang dipajang di atas semacam nisan, yang mungkin pertama-tama sering dikunjungi,
namun lama-lama semakin jarang. Hingga pada akhirnya hanya menjelang bulan puasa.
Nama di sebuah nisan yang berlumut. Usang. Bau. Ditakuti orang lewat.
Dan sewaktu hidup, gue gak mau jadi semacam jiwa yang memenuhi bumi ini,
menyesaki kota ini,
sama-sama makan, minum, berak, bicara. Untuk apa?

gue ngerasa kecil. Gue ngerasa gue harus make something out of life. Badan ini dipinjamkan. Setiap tarikan napas, adalah satu tarikan napas lagi mendekati kematian. Kita harus ngebuat lebih banyak karya, lebih banyak menikmati hidup, lebih banyak mengambil kesempatan. Hidup ini cuman sekali. Akan sangat sayang untuk kita buang begitu aja. I have to enjoy life....

it'll reaches eleven

ten months is not that simple

not that short

not that forgettable

I've been struggling from the start, and now, it has been ten months, and i still couldn't.....

could i?

10 Wishlist

1. Umroh with the whole family

2. Trip to Europe {again, with my family. see? such a sweet daddy's girl we have here!}

3. Universal Studio Hollywood, or Disney world Orlando, atau paling banter USS with Allya

4. BOLD 9900! {the white one}

5. The infinity of money to buy all the clothes i want $$$$$

6. Mixer, Timbangan & Oven gas buat bikin kue<3

7. Macintosh pro

8. gedein kamar, ada dvd playernya didalem biar bisa blockbuster movies week malem-malem:-D

9. Swatch!

10. Motorcycle {well....not really hoping though}

itudoang kok bu, pak. please?

hey....

i don't know where to start

i envy those guys who can do what ever they want

hangout, parties, flirting, become a bitch, well, doing whatever they want

while i'm struggling here, trying to become what i've planned to be.

i'm sick of it, bitch, I want to be like you.